So loooooong, farewelllllllllll.....

We've had a death in the family.  Its a big loss for us...the family matriarch.  A fabulous lady who lived a pretty wonderful life.  She was a survivor (cancer, stroke, diabetes).  A widow...twice. She saw the world, but her world was her family.  She gave and she gave and she gave.  Friday we had a box in the mail from her, more really cute clothes for Lilly, including her very first pair of OshKoshes (yellow).  The note, on yellow legal paper, said: "Don't ever walk into a store where the entrance is the baby section.  Kisses to Lilly."  Its on the fridge, it'll be there for a long time. We talked to her on Saturday to say thanks.  She always wanted to know what Lilly was doing.  On to the next big thing.  We'll miss her....

Children: There's a sad sort of clanging from the clock in the hall 
And a bell in the steeple too 
And in the nursery an absurd little bird 
Is popping out to say "cuckoo" 
Marta, Gretl, Brigitta: Cuckoo, cuckoo 

Children: Marta, Gretl, Brigitta: 

Regretfully they tell us Cuckoo, cuckoo 
But firmly they compel us Cuckoo, cuckoo 
To say goodbye . . . 
Marta, Gretl, Brigitta: Cuckoo! 
Children: . . . to you 

Children: So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehn, good night 
Marta: I hate to go and miss this pretty sight 
Children: So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehn, adieu 
Friedrich: Adieu, adieu, to you and you and you 

Children: So long, farewell, auf 'voir , auf wiedersehn 
Liesl: I'd like to stay and taste my first champagne 

Children: So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehn, goodbye 
Kurt: I leave and heave a sigh and say goodbye -- Goodbye! 
Brigitta: I'm glad to go, I cannot tell a lie 
Louisa: I flit, I float, I fleetly flee, I fly 
Gretl: The sun has gone to bed and so must I 

Children: So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye 
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye 

Guests: Goodbye!

Chemistry is my Bitch

I say that beause I got a B on my third chemistry test. The bestest end to a week in a long ass time. Here's to an awesome weekend full of baby giggles and cookie baking. 

Hope the sun shines for you,

Molly

Finally Friday. Whew.

Its been a really trying week:  I've ridden an emotional rollercoaster (which has finally arrived back at the loading deck).  Class has sucked.  Lilly's teeth are trying really hard to come in...but alas, nothing yet (and yet she's such a happy baby, I'm just so lucky) I tried all new meals for dinner this week...a few worked out, mostly sub-par. But the fish tacos...now, those were good.  Tonight we dine out.  It will be so nice to go somewhere where they make the food for you.  And then I'm going to come home, put the baby to bed and have multiple drinks with my husband.  I'm definately not studying tonight.  Nope, not doing it. Unless I can't sleep.  Then I'll probably do some practice problems.  Blech.  Yeah, thats probably happening.  

I have a test next week, but I'm just not allowing myself to get all worked up about it. I've done that twice now and its not paid off one lick.  I'm pretty sick of my professor and her lectures on how this is a hard class and we need to constantly study (no shit).  I'm pretty sick of my 19-20 year old classmates (constantly talking during class).  Its going to be a little rough when I'm back to school full time, at least in the age difference department.  I know your only as old as you feel...but lately, I'm feeling my age: 29.  Thats an average 9-11 year age difference with the agerage college student.  Anyways, I'm an adult now, the end.  Not dwelling. 

I'm going to throw together a little Passover seder dinner for the two of us.  I just love those dishes and the readings, so much fun to explore a culture different than what you grew up with.  I'm so excited for Lilly to learn and enjoy these traditions.  But she'll know how to make devilled eggs too.

Hope the sun shines for you this weekend, 

Molly    

Hater.

I'm a hater today.  I hate everything and everyone except 2-3 co-workers, my husband,  my baby and my two dogs.   Its funny how the process goes: I move from relatively happy, to massively depressed, to hate monger all within about a 2 week period.  I shouldn't exaggerate though, I'm still verily, verily depressed.  

Dear whatever it is that exists(if anything exists at all beyond all this) that I can pray to: Please help me get through this moment, this hour, this day.  Amen. 

And now for something positive to think about: 

A Monday Like Any Other

Today started with me getting enough coffee to get through a grueling morning of Chemistry class in which my professor gave us a 10 minute lecture on how we ("we" being my 19-20 year old class mates) shouldn't come into class whining about the homework.  She also went on a tyrade on how we should have known this was an "accelerated" class and that it would be hard.  It was a major waste of time and uneffective at that.  Get. Over. Yourself.  First of all, its my first chemistry class. Ever.  Second of all, we missed a whole week of class due to snow days and 2 hour delays.  There's only so much you can do to make up for that lost time.  So suck it.  

Also, I forgot my wallet (still in the diaper bag from this weekend) and my cell phone (kitchen counter) so I'm right on top of things today!  I would whine, but it does me no good and I'm trying really hard to hang on today.  I'm not fully recouperated from last week.  I realized that this morning on the freezing cold walk back from class...attempting not to cry.  I made it.  I'm crashing now, time for more caffeine.  

Baby steps, 

Molly

My Baby Sleeps on her Belly, Big Lots and Landscaping

Now that Lilly is rolling over and such, she does so in her sleep. So she sleeps mainly on her belly and on her side. There's just nothing quite like watching her sleep, breathe her sweet baby breath and suck her thumb (her newest trick). It brings me great peace and fills me up with love. She's full, she's warm, she's comfortable, she's happy. We're very, very lucky.

Lilly and I made a trip to Big Lots. What can I say, its just not as exciting as it used to be. They have expanded their line of crap to include some "fancy" home goods (see cheap Martha) that is way over priced. I'll take Old Time Pottery anyday. But they do still have some great teas. In the end, I walked away with some nice decaf Chai, Peeps and a few rose bushes. I'm excited to see how they fair.

Speaking of, I managed to do some landscaping this afternoon. We have a few areas around the house that need a lot of work and a few spots that we worked on last year that aren't so bad. That is where I spent my time today. I picked up a few plants and a shit load of cypress mulch from Lowes this weekend. I seem to be getting better at picking plants out. If this was old Molly, I'd have picked flowers out willy-nilly, not read the labels to see what is appropriate for my space and absolutely no color scheme. Anyways, I weeded and mulched and put the flowers around the mail box and in some big pots on the back porch. Its shaping up. Still lots more ahead of me though. I have a funny story that I'll share tomorrow about digging a hole in one of the planters that sit against the back patio. It'll make you giggle...or gag.

Here's hoping for a good week...I really need it,
Molly Jane

Yesterday was Bad, Today is Better

Even with the sunshine and almost 80 degree weather, I was walking with a cloud and rain pouring down on me all day. I lost it when I got home, cried like a baby. It was cathardic. Sometimes depression hits me like a ton of bricks, mentally and physically. I'm home today. And even though the actual weather has turned cold and rainy, my personal clouds are starting to lift. This semester has almost run me into the ground, but I think I'll survive. I'm just glad its almost over. I'll be so relieved. So relieved. So relieved.

Here's hoping you have a wonderful Friday,
Molly

Got Something Motivating to Say?

I'm pretty empty today.  I'm thinking that when I go home and play with the baby that I'll be full again.  So until then, no amount of sunshine and pink blossoms can cheer this girl up.  I just have days like this where I don't feel much of anything.  I want to leave so bad.  Just 15 more minutes to go and all will be well in the world again. 

Chemistry

You know, I really don't hate on Chemistry.  But it sure hates on me.  

This is chemistry...he's insane.  Its the only explaination I can come up with: 

Vacation in my Head and Cookies are in the Corner

Oh, and did I mention that I could use a vacation.  As I sit here trying to keep my eyes open at work, I'm feeling it.  The down side is that I don't have all that much vacation time saved up at the moment due to having had to use it for maternity leave.  Blech.  So it will be either late summer or early fall before I get a real one.  That leaves me with no other options but to day dream and start coming up with ideas for a fall trip.  I'll research it to death and then find myself trying to talk my signifiant other into another trip to the same little beach town in NC that is just a guaranteed good time. I'm going to try really, really, really hard not to do that this time.  I'm thinking it's time we trekked down to New Oreans and had a real adventure.  We'll see how that goes.  In the meantime I'll dust off my copies of Summer Rental and National Lampoon's Vacation to get me through.   Meanwhile, back on the ranch....

At the end of this month my office is having a Cookie-off, if you will.  This leads me to a dilemma: I already won the pie contest.  If I enter the cookie contest, I'm sure to win.  So, having already won the pie contest, is it fair for me to enter at all? I wouldn't want to hinder this moral boosting event with my ego or anything...heh heh heh.  But seriously though, in my previous life, I was a baker of cookies and I still have the chops.  I'm sure to kill, that is, unless I try a new recipe.  I might do that just to make it fair to the other contestants.  I'm thinking about black and white cookies.  I love them dearly and I've never made them.  Being somewhat of a cake style recipe, they are sure to be a challenge.  Ok then, lets do this!